Making the decision to have a child is the most selfless decision you can ever make in your life, and my husband and I decided to do so. Everyone's pregnancy is different. I thought my pregnancy would be the splitting image of easy, but it was far from it. The overwhelming nausea and quick weight gain was not easy at all. Towards the end of my pregnancy, I was not only tired but dying to have my little girl already. I guzzled down castor oil, walked miles, swam laps, climbed stairs, squatted like a champion, and ate like a beast; and still nothing. I remember, in my desperation, walking in the mall and meeting a woman who had a 6 month old. She told me something that I will never forget, "You can't have any expectations during labor, anything can happen." This was very true, after the fact. Again, I thought labor would be 1, 2, 3, pitocin, epidural, and BAM! How wrong was I? I was admitted at 6 am and didn't deliver till 5pm. The doctor demanded to stop the epidural so I could experience what was really happening to my body. The pain was unbearable. But finally, the moment came, where it felt like a giant blob fell out of me, Victoria was born. A beautiful 8 lb 12 ounce baby girl. I was in shock, so I hear this is common. Shaking, cold, the works! Recovering was the worst. I had pain for a month, from my ribs to my hips. And then there was breastfeeding... I applaud all the women that do it, it is very painful and needs a lot of dedication and patience. I am proud to say i did it for a month but could no longer bear the pain. If you can do it, do it but if you can't there should be no judgments. As of today, my Victoria is bigger than ever. I miss how tiny she was, if you think 8 lbs is tiny. Like many say, every pregnancy is different, but i hold myself close to my word, no more babies for me- but then again, who doesn't say that.
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